I noticed that whenever we did see her over this last one week, it was obvious that her mind was still engaged in work, mentally and emotionally. Coming home was just a passing motion, a necessity borne out of the need to wash and change of clothes. I could sense though that her heart wanted to break out of the claw of the stress of her work, and reaching out to us with care for nothing else. But I know it was hard. Been through it myself and struggled, although the extent might not be the same...
How do i feel about all this? Like I've said... Lonely. I miss my wife. I miss just having her around. Missing to hear her voice telling me of her stories at work or the latest updates of the score of Malay dramas that she follows, even if the truth is I have never been really listening for more than half of the time. I sorely miss her, that I find myself struggling to sleep at night. I would stay up until late fiddling with my phone, browsing my FB page or the scores of news about Arsenal on my Safari bookmark on my Iphone 5, tryimg to bore myself to sleep. Fortunately, I have managed to eventually sleep these last couple of days doing just that, though it has been taking me till the wee hours in the morning doing so. Having surah Yusuf playing from my IPad has somehow helped to bring calm and peace in my heart, and has eased me somewhat to sleep these last couple of days...
I miss you sayang. I know you are surely feeling more miserable than I do at this moment, having to spend crazy hours with number crunching and preparing presentations. May Allah give you the strength to go through this difficult moment, and grant you with His blessings. Insya-Allah it will be over soon...
